The Boomerang Blessing

The promise is that if I let go of the thing that burdens me, a new thing will come instead and will be so much better.

It’s like throwing a boomerang to the heavens. I reach back and toss the junky icon, and though it is painful to do so, I watch it disappear into the sky. My whole world just left me.

It’s hard. But I start moving again. Living my life. Adjusting to this awkward lightness. I’m so free now I don’t know what to do with my day.

And so moving, I become stronger. In my strength, I give. I’ve learned to let go. And now I can let go of anything.

And because I’ve learned how to let go, the blessing is that I’ve now also been trained how to receive.

I’ve moved through life in a way that has deepened me in all the challenges it presents. I’m stronger.

And one day, what I find in my hand is the thing I had let go of so long ago. It’s not my world any longer. It’s not greater than the seed of life. I hold it in perspective after its journey so far away from me. It has passed through a Kingdom. It’s not mine. It was never mine.

I see it now not as my entire world, but as it has traveled through the heavens, gathering with it love and peace and joy. The thing I was crushing in my hand was never meant for my self-rule, but to be set free for the heart of Jesus.

What I give Him, He captures. And then the miracle is that God understands me in what I really want, in what truly is good.

I had a kingdom in my fist, trying to rule it. But Jesus took it Himself, though it cost Him everything. Instead of perishing in my own kingdom, He’s given me the freedom to live in and enjoy His.