Giving Up Altogether

I think this may exist as a double edged sword. Today, let me live on both sides of the blade. Let me quit, first and foremost, on trying to make it in this world – to try and become a thing that is of flesh but no soul. Then, if I am lucky enough to be that kind of man, let me give up altogether what is left me, and hand it over to God. I am constantly singed and seared by this flaming world. But if am nothing more than ashes, even the residue of who I once was has become something beautiful to Jesus.